A Reflection

Reflecting back on the beginning of my weight struggles I find myself questioning what= takes us  so long to do something about it. Well the answer is simple. We simply won't do something until we are ready or forced to do it due to a health risk. For me it was both. First, even though I have tried so many times in the past I really wasn't ready. Second, I abused myself with food for so long that I found myself slowly loosing my mobility due to knee problems. Also, even though it was never diagnosed by a doctor, I believe I was in the beginning of congestive heart failure. My lungs were constantly full of fluids and I coughed uncontrollably for a long period of time. I knew that in order to save my life it was time to do something about all of this.

I am a spiritual person and my first approach was to turn to my Father in Heaven to ask for direction. I was led to once again give weight watchers a try and only this time put my whole heart and soul into it. I spent hours of research looking for the answers that would change not only my health but save my life. Amazingly the weight is beginning to come off and I am seeing changes in my body. My energy is returning and moving about during the day is becoming easier. Before beginning the program I couldn't do more than five minutes of housework without my back feeling like it was going to give out. I can now do more around the house than a few months ago. Also, another notice I have made is the ease of getting up from a sitting position. Before, I could barely stand up without help and when I did it felt as if my knees were going to buckle under me and that I would fall. Now I can stand up without help and don't feel like I am going to fall to the ground.

I guess I would say that as I reflect back on the past six months of my lifelong journey I am excited for my future. It all begins with a small step and continuing to take those small steps each day. Now you might ask if I have days that I fall short or take some backward steps. Well that answer is yes. After all I am human and not perfect. The key however is to not let it become a stumbling block and keep me from picking myself up and moving forward. In the past I would have just said, "Well I really messed this up". Then I would have quit. Not this time. This time I will succeed.